John 11:25-26 New Living Translation (NLT)
Jesus told her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this, Martha?”
Dealing with Grief
I am now dealing with grief. The one year anniversary of my mom’s death came and went a week ago. I anticipated that moment and wondered how I would feel. There is something strong about a daughter’s love. A week later, and I am still wondering how I feel.
I know that she is not far away. If she was, I would feel the distance—but I don’t. I continue to say “My parents” as if she is still here. When I am at my dad’s house, my mind tells me my mom just ran to the store, and I just missed her. While at the store, my heart tells me she is at home preparing dinner and gearing up to watch the shows she just taped. When my dad calls and I am only talking to him, I envision my mom at the doctor’s office and not available to pick up the phone.
This last year has been a lot of, Oh darn. I just missed her by a second, thoughts so when the year anniversary came and went, I still just feel it’s a matter of time before I bump into her again. Our timing has just been off.
Have you ever experienced this?
In a lot of ways, I feel like my mom moved closer towards me. Closer than has she ever been before. A year ago she shed the worldly worries and jagged edges that sometimes define our outlook. She is now sheathed in the love and light of Jesus. She can see, hear, smell, feel, and delight in the Lord in ways I could only dream about. Depression can’t touch her. Migraines can’t trap her. And a lung disease can no longer claim her.
Just Around the Corner
I may not be bumping into my mom at the grocery store or seeing her physically on the couch playing her games on her tablet or deciphering puzzles in her books, but if given a choice, I doubt she would trade her now for our here. Our here and now will one day by united with hers, but until then, I choose to say, “I’ll see you soon,” rather than, “Where did you go?” I know where she is, so she never really left.
My mom is simply around a corner I can’t see, and she will step into view when God says it’s time. She put in her time in a world that harbors sin, disease, and death and transitioned into her eternity. Our grief of losing them has a way of making us reflect on our own mortality and wonder about life vs. death, but really there is no death. We have a temporary life and an eternal life. It’s life and life.
I prayed for my mom’s salvation for years. I prayed over her and with her in her sickness and asked if she knew where she was going as her corner was swiftly approaching. She said she knew and felt very peaceful. She was the Potter’s clay. I knew in that moment I would be okay because she would be okay.
Our Side of the Corner
My peace in my grief comes from the corner I know where my mom turned. My bumping into her will be a true celebration. On this side of the corner, I pray God can use me to point as many people as possible to Him. My purpose and mission help my grief.
What we do with our time on this side of the corner can affect not only the here and now of those we love, but the future forever of the death corner they will turn. Where do we want to bump into our loved ones when God says it’s time?
In honor of those we lost and love, let’s begin a mission of seed planting. We should use our grief for a purpose greater than ourselves. Let the line turning the corner to an eternity with Christ be so long, the ticket holder ran out of numbers.
The day we turn the corner and see our loved ones standing behind Jesus, may there be a truck-load of people behind them holding a seed we helped to plant. That will be a day we will count our grief as joy.
10 thoughts on “Dealing with Grief: My Mom is Just Around the Corner”
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Thank you for sharing that, I have a son, daughter & husband waiting for me with the Lord.
I too have witnessed Heaven, in a time when I had a near death experience giving birth to my son who was born sleeping…I have spoken my experience with many over the years here in Australia & internationally…
You’re correct when in Heaven you do not want to return here! It is absolutely majestical!
I am so sorry for your loss. I am sure your experience gives you great peace knowing what glory they are experiencing. It would make it so hard for me wanting to get back there! Thank you for sharing your experience. I’m sure your words give many others peace as well. Many blessings on this ministry.
Thank you for your kind words Crista, yes my Heaven experience does give peace & serenity, to know where & what my loved ones are experiencing & continues to be humbling…in what awaits each if us when our time to comes 🙂
However I have a mandate from the Lord to share the experience, so I will continue to be faithful until then…
What a gift to be given a task by God.
Definitely & very humbling…
One of your best ever!! Loved this! It reminded me of Marc like no one else has written. Not many can write of death so frankly yet so full of real appreciation of this life. Yes, I feel Marc is right around the corner.
He definitely is, and one day we will all be worshiping together!!